Luke - 16

16mi, 2:08:10 (8:00)
Ran with Zack and Jeff, up Rexius to Dillard, stopped real quick at the Barber Street Poetry Box and grabbed July's poem (I will reprint it at the end of this post) then headed up onto Ridgeline for a little while before coming down Fox Hollow and heading back on Rexius and Amazon.  We stopped at the HS track parking lot where Jeff had parked and talked for 5-10 minutes, and when I started running again I was pretty stiff.  Zack went straight home for a good 12 or so, and I continued on out to Pre's Trail and back to make it 16.  The last 4-5 miles, after stopping, were a bit tough, but I felt fine after and the rest of the run was nice.  Should get used to these long runs pretty quick, and hopefully these <3 months leading up to the marathon go well.

Hearing Dean Young on a Poetry Foundation podcast talking

  about Kenneth Koch

and reading his elegy for Koch,

and then, once I got to my office,

reading a few of Koch’s poems in Thank You,

and then remembering Jeffrey Harrison’s elegy for Koch 

  that I read online,

and the AWP panel that Mark Halliday was on celebrating Koch,

I think: I should write an elegy for Kenneth Koch!

I was in a class of his at Columbia. We read the anthology

of modern poetry he had put together with Kate Farrell,

Sleeping on the Wing. I probably wouldn’t have been a poet

without that class and that book.

I wasn’t a dedicated student then. When I went to my classes, 

it was out of obligation. But Koch liked D. H. Lawrence so much,

and Apollinaire, and Mayakovsky, that I went to class

to hear him read their poems.

That was the year I started writing poems. 

It was the year that I would walk five long blocks from my dorm

to my girlfriend’s dorm, trying not to step on the cracks 

  in the sidewalk,

seeing how many steps I could take without doing so, 

  but not altering 

my gait noticeably (I didn’t want to look nuts).

Why didn’t I look up, though? I was in New York City. 

Numbers would always be there, and everywhere.

Irrelevant records would be set and broken and set,

yet I counted. And when I made it to Nicole’s door

(I changed her name),

I put the numbers aside and fell into her arms and her bed.

I wrote a sentimental love poem to her about those cracks, 

  it even rhymed,

and when she read it she hugged me and kissed me and 

  thanked me.

I don’t know where that poem is now.

Nicole is a pediatrician somewhere in Delaware — I Googled her 

  a couple times.

I wonder if Kenneth Koch got to enjoy the word Googled.

And that was also the year that students put chains 

  across the doors

of Hamilton Hall, where Koch’s class was held, 

  and if you wanted

to go to class, you had to take a tunnel from Philosophy Hall,

so even though I agreed with the protests — I wanted Columbia 

to divest from South Africa — I would go to class. Sometimes.

I didn’t go to class the day Koch read a few student poems.

I was telling another student how I had turned in my parody of 

  Lawrence’s poem, 

“Snake” — God, that’s a good poem. You should read that 

after you finish reading this — and that student said,

“Oh, he read your poem in class!” 

If I wanted to be maudlin I could make that moment 

emblematic of my life:

How I missed the times when my words were read aloud,

and there may even be some truth to that. I’m a teacher,

and students, if they talk about me at all, probably repeat things

I’ve said in class outside of class, among themselves,

so I don’t get to hear my own words being appreciated.

If you’re interested, there’s more about me and Kenneth Koch 

in my essay “Me and Langston.” But I didn’t write about

the letter that he sent me a few months before he died,

after I’d written to him to thank him for Sleeping on the Wing

because I’d used the book in my creative writing classes

for a decade and I still loved it, even if my students didn’t.

In the letter, he did what I did at the beginning of this stanza —

He told me about other books of his. “If you liked that book,

you might like . . .” he wrote. 

Before I finish, I want to mention

that I was listening to the podcast about Kenneth Koch

on my iPod as I was walking to school on the day 

  after Halloween.

Did Kenneth ever hear that word, iPod?

And as I was walking, and listening to him read a poem,

and then Dean Young read his elegy to Koch on the podcast 

  through a cell phone — 

“Elegy on a Toy Piano” it’s called —

I was seeing how many steps I could take, consecutively,

without stepping on a crack.

-J. D. Scrimgeour